I irritate myself

Like seriously....

Have you been so irritated with yourself you don't know what to do?
It's not like you can ask your babbling brain to shut up and focus on something you desperately need to work on right?

Well, is it just me?

I don't know.

Since I am not being productive...and I HAVE NOT BEEN PRODUCTIVE for the past one and a half weeks, I might as well blog.
And I hope blogging heals my irritated nerves.

ARGH.

It all started today when I woke up at 3PM in the evening.

I get really irritated with myself when I wake up real late because I know I have to work with limited hours of sunlight. And just so you know, I delight working when the sun is up although I don't have the discipline to wake up early.

Another thing that made me forgive myself for getting up late is because I have been working for the past four days in a store called Forever 21 in Queensbay Mall which I was going to blog about when my computer and handphone irritated me to the max by a faulty bluetooth connection.

So yeah.

I am irritated.

With myself.

I am trying to study.

I am.

But I can't.

I am scared.

My heart is thumping because I have not studied.

I am not making myself feel better by thinking of people who have studied much much more than I did and I am here...BLOGGING.

I am irritating myself AGAIN.

Sigh.

Plus, I don't feel right.

I can't put a finger on what is really wrong here but... ARGH.

You know what? I think I should just wash my face and start afresh.

I will RE-try to study. I know there is no such word but I will stop trying to irritate myself by trying to correct myself.

I am one confused girl.

Help?